Rental open house. Beautiful place, bit pricey... well, ya, very pricey, but it beats the d-u-m-p I saw yesterday by light-years... The woman showing the pricey and stunning house turns out to be a way long time ago friend of my mom's. Mom must remember Lin C. ...? Anyway, Lin C. is not only the renting agent she is also the next door neighbor. The big bummer (you knew there had to be a *big bummer*) is the size... tight squeeze. And that is today's housing update. How was your day?
I was really struck by what you said about how your time, thoughts, and concerns should flow in circles where they are received and returned, in a loving, kind cycle. I need to do that. I was also struck by what you said about how it has been in your nature to overextend your concern and love and money and thoughts and efforts in directions where they weren't required, or appreciated, or respected. So you feel embarrassed, hurt, and sad. I'm like that too I think, and I feel that way too.
So what can we do? Sometimes I shut down, but it doesn't feel good, natural. I think if I can focus on a more immediate circle (without fretting over what I don't need to fret over) then maybe I will find a more satisfying and genuine happiness... maybe?
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