Wednesday, June 27, 2018

A Labyrinth in the Woods

June 2, 2018
Bandon Dunes Resort, and Labyrinth, Bullards State Beach, Bandon, and South Slough Research Reserve~

Yellow roses will forever be Eunice's... her spirit, her beauty, her radiance and resilience, her kind soul, and gentle being, her strength.

Everyday of this trip, everyday since I parted with her, I think of her, I look for her, I wait to understand, to feel at peace with... with all of it. I think in Oregon, most of all, I was expecting to find something to settle my grief, to resolve the feeling of disbelief. No platitudes, nor axioms, no thoughts of a peaceful passing, long life, better place are true enough, can give me solace. It's not that I cannot see good, or cannot smile... it's not that I don't understand about life and death, about time and cycles. It's simply that I cannot be agreeable and accept what nature and physics and the infinite unknown have dealt us. I long for a way to drop the walls and veils, to see the point and direction, to know some comfort, to be assured that our path is not so inevitably futile.

The world is so beautiful, so painfully beautiful. When we have had enough of pain and beauty... I hope there will be understanding.
August 7, 2018

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