Tuesday, January 23, 2024

I Wonder...

Walks into space, tentatively. Looks around. Hello?
I am taxing my brain, trying to remember all of the steps and numbers, the order of operations, just to make anything appear on the page. Besides figuring all of that out, there is the question of writing, and what to write. It's been so long since I post Too long. I feel anxious and uncomfortable, like hives are coming on, thinking of all the things left unsaid, all of the moments I didn't share, record, make note of. I know, better than ever, how much I depend on the archives here, and it makes me sad that I have not kept up. Maybe I can do it. Maybe I can diligently, sparingly, catch-up. Then again, maybe I will just keep moving forward. I am unsure.
One thing I do know... time has warped since 2020, maybe even since the last days of 2016, and everything since has become a muddled tangle of events and passages, of happenings that I never could have predicted. It seems a universal experience that we have lost perspective and can hardly distinguish the last 6 months from the last four years. Maybe that is part of what makes me miss Chickenblog. I need an anchor a signpost, something apart from social media algorithms and the fast-paced blurr of life, where I can reflect and process, and... And breath.
We are all here, in our BirdHouse. The youngfolk, and our cats, the goats, the chickens, the laundry. We are well, in the ways that matter. We have had good days, and that matters, too. Sometimes, so little changes, I forget that a lot has changed. A lot has happened since November 13, 2022.

7 comments:

angela said...

Welcome bac’ to blogville
Take things nice and slow and post whenever you feel like it. I find once I took the pressure off to post
Everyday I started enjoying it again.

Dayle Kasner said...

Hi Natalie et al,
I have been feeling the same... much goes on and yet so much seems the same.
Of course, my days are similar without a force of nature here to bring about change...

Anonymous said...

Oh, my! Just do as yo feel, don't let it crush you! It's okay to not blog for a while. It's okay to blog a lot! It's your blog, do as you enjoy!!
Cat

Gretchen Joanna said...

So good to see you!! I always admire people who can take a break from blogging and come back when they feel like it <3

Unknown said...

Happy to find a new post from you! Hope that you will continue to post as you have time and things to share - I enjoy all the creativity and glimpses of community. Thanks much for your gentle presence.

-Jean Marie (from SW Virginia)

Natalie, the Chickenblogger said...

Cat, Dayle, Gretchen, Jean Marie...
Thank you so much for stopping by, for leaving comments. Now I am back to fiddling around here, I am so grateful to already enjoy interactions, engagement. I admit, I am addicted to the rapid action and response found on Instagram, but it's perhaps too fast, too fleeting. There is something gratifying and gentle about posting here... it is slower, but also more mindful.
My break was not as intentional as I could take credit for, and maybe it was something I needed to do, and I guess I do feel like getting back to it. I hesitate to admit... but this is harder than I'd like. Maybe that's a good thing.

Anonymous said...

so happy your back.. i originally found your blog on the list of favorites of Posey gets cozy blog.. love reading your stories and seeing your fotos.. keep it up if you can during this very crazy times.. its very calming!